Alanis Morissette is “Head Over Feet” for her kids, but the process of getting them into her arms wasn’t exactly a “Hands Clean” kind of situation.
The singer described the experience of her home birth with daughter Onyx Solace, now 14 months, to PEOPLE recently — including all the not-for-the-faint-of-heart gory details.
“It was terrifying, but then once we heard her, and once she cried I pulled her up and she started breastfeeding, I was just like, ‘Ah,’ ” shares Morissette, 43. “It gets gnarlier and gnarlier. I think the words Texas Chainsaw Massacre were used when walked in. It’s pretty gnarly, but it’s not meant to be all clean and perfect. We are animals.”
And “pain” isn’t even a strong enough word to describe the agony the singer was in. As she explains, “It’s like an 18-wheeler careening through your whole body. It’s beyond pain. I have a high tolerance for pain … this trumped all.”
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